Everybody left on Sunday and so it was just back to me and Adelé. Which I think was actually good because we were in need of some quiet again.
First thing Monday morning I had a doctor's appointment. While there he was concerned about something he felt while doing his exam so scheduled me the very next day to have an ultrasound done. While talking to him we were both very concerned about what it was and the treatment options for both did not sound pleasant. I went to work very worried for the next's days test. They called me late that afternoon and said they needed to reschedule me for Wednesday. I thought great what better way to spend my birthday - hearing my fate. The next two days were stressful. Although every time I prayed I knew that whatever the results were it would be okay.
Wednesday came and I went to get the ultrasound done. The tech doing the ultrasound was not allowed to comment on what she was seeing. Just watching on the screen as she would go from side to side of my body I could tell there was something wrong - and I am not even clinical. She let me know that as soon as the radiologist read results he would let my doctor know. I called my doctor's office and they said they would let me know right away what the results were.
I could not focus the rest of the day. I spent the evening with Adelé at the festival of trees that my health system sponsors. She loved looking at all the trees.
The next morning as I was driving to work I got the phone call from my doctor's office. It was what he had suspected it was and he wanted me to come in and talk through my options later that day. I realized how much I take Oley for granted when he is around. Just having him here for the emotional support would have been huge. Although it was nice to get to work and find that my team had left flowers and chocolate on my desk for my birthday the day before - I hadn't been there since the day before my birthday.
While talking with the doctor later that day neither of the options that he has offered really felt right, so we are going to pray about what we want to do. It's crazy having to make big decisions surrounding your body and what is going to be best for me.
Oley stayed in Spokane till Friday this week because his teacher was allowing him to take his final early so he doesn't have to go next week. It's amazing how quickly he has learned how to do things. This was his leg that he made this quarter - what a stud!
Adelé and I started decorating the house for Christmas. She loves her little pink tree.
Saturday we have made it our tradition to go and get our tree. As we were talking about what kind of traditions we would like to start we decided doughnuts and getting Christmas trees on Saturday morning after my birthday would be great!
Once we got home I had let Adelé go out back and play with the dogs. I ran upstairs briefly to grab something and all I hear from downstairs is "Mom Poop!" I knew those two words repeated together were not going to result in anything good. When I got downstairs Adelé had stepped in poop out back and had it everywhere. All over her pants all over her shoes and tracked all through the house. I grabbed her ran her upstairs set her in the tub and washed her off. Once I got back downstairs I cleaned up the big ol mess that was everywhere. Oley walked in just as I was finishing and asked "aren't you guys ready yet and why is Adelé in a diaper?" If he only knew! I love being a mom but some days are just better than others.
Adelé was such big helper as Oley set up the tree.
It's so nice to have Christmas now up in the house! That afternoon I went with the youth to do baptisms for the dead. The decision of what treatment option I was going to do was still heavily on my mind. As I sat in the temple and helped the youth go through an answer came over me that we will go and see the specialists and see where that route takes us. I am so grateful for the gospel in our lives and that we are able to be guided and directed. We are extremely blessed.
